Sometimes I’m irritated by this human life. Dealing with bullshit, unnecessary things that don’t matter. People work all their lives, buy strange things, products, raise children, drive cars, are in traffic jams and waiting for a red light… pay taxes, clean up when they get dirty. They spend whole days at work to earn money, to be able to pay their bills. Strange duties, responsibilities, relationships. Sometimes they have a holiday and travel to exotic countries and think they’re great by posting colorful photos on Facebook. And the more ambitious ones try even harder to do these strange things better, more effective and are considered successful people. A lot of people think that if someone is spiritual, enlightened, realized… Fuck knows what, he can’t be in a bad mood, he smiles and sends love and breathes deeply when shit falls on him. Sometimes I get the impression that I am surrounded by an idiotic world and fucking people who chase strange things that don’t matter in the end. Let’s face the truth. This is not the life of a master in this world, this is a parody. Nothing but drink whiskey and smoke cigarettes and have fun with this comedy.
One day, I heard the voice of my soul in my head.
SOUL: What are you waiting for?
HUMAN: Yyyy? I do so many things, I have a great life.
SOUL: What are you waiting for? What are you waiting for? What are you waiting for?
SOUL: Why do you stand still, years go by and you do everything around you, but not what you should do?
You go around and around and you don’t do what you’re supposed to do.
HUMAN: Then what the hell am I supposed to do?
SOUL: No more running around in circles. Look at yourself. What are you afraid of? Not what bothers you, what you want to fix. What are you most afraid of? You think you have to solve all your human problems in order to go further. Clean up. You say, OK, we move on, but first I have to do this and this…. and the years go by. And you are standing in the same place and waiting. You don’t know what you’re waiting for. You keep repeating the same thing. And you are just waiting.You were trained to perfection not to see what you were most afraid of. Not to see what is the essence of things. You have lied to yourself and you are lying to others. You do it perfectly, that you believe in it. You’re a perfect liar.
HUMAN: Thank you for your appreciation.
SOUL: Yeah, you’re great, everything you do is beautiful. The human experience is amazing and as a soul, I don’t want to punish you for anything. No one wants to punish you, you are perfect at what you do. But it’s time to move on. It’s time to move on, dear human.
HUMAN: Okay, I have some problems, things I’m afraid of and I didn’t want to look at them for a long time. I’m running out of money, there’s a fuck in my life and I don’t know what’s gonna happen tomorrow.
SOUL: But what’s behind these things? The details that manifest themselves physically do not matter. It is only a reflection of what is in the depths.What are you really afraid of? It’s not money, it’s not health, it’s not human problems.
HUMAN: I think I’m afraid of suffering.
SOUL: That’s the answer I wanted. It was easier for you to solve human problems, to walk from one problem to another and to create another so that you could solve it again. It was an escape from suffering. But if you look at the years of your life, you always had something to eat, a place to live and a good life, and yet you suffered. You suffered deeply. You could smile and look like a happy person, but you suffered deeply.
HUMAN: That’s how I feel about this suffering right now.
SOUL: 99% of people live and identify themselves with the mind, the ego. And the basis on which the mind is built is suffering. It’s so important to feel suffering. Don’t think about it, but feel it and don’t run away from it. Suffering is the creation of the mind. It may manifest itself physically, but it is an illusion, a creation of the mind.
When you know it’s an illusion, you’re not afraid to go through it anymore. It is painful to avoid fear, but not to recognize it and open yourself up to it. If you consciously open yourself to suffering, it disappears. There is no more power over you.
HUMAN: All right, but what about those physical problems that can really affect me and I can really physically suffer?
SOUL: This is what keeps you in the illusion of fear the most, physical suffering. But as I said, even physical suffering is mental. Through your mind, you create physical pain. Stop creating pain.When you accept it and stop creating physical pain, when you really understand it, nothing will hurt you. There can be no physical reality, any reality, unless you create it in non-physical dimensions.It’s time to let go of the illusion of fear. This is the only thing that keeps you in your mind. By understanding this, you can open yourself up to all illusions and sufferings. Everything you avoided. When they appear, be open, allow, breath deeply do not explain the decisions you have made in the past and what you will do in the future to avoid those problems. All human everyday problems are a manifestation of mental fear of suffering. People create problems because they think that if they solve them they will stop suffering, but then there will be others and others. You won’t get through suffering by solving your problems. No fighting, a total surrender. This is an internal transformation. So stay calm. Don’t try to focus on small problems, this is what distracts you from the essence of the existence of problems. Feel the essence of suffering, take it with all your heart. Remember, nothing can happen to you. Things may look dangerous around you, but it’s a mind game. Spread your wings and rise above all else. This is true alchemy. And you are a true Alchemist.
And remember, you’re great, no one judges you for your choices. Only you. You are not in danger. You are a great being who has for a moment forgotten who you are. You are the only creator of your reality, no one threatens you but you. All the problems you’ve created for yourself you can uncreate them. Remember, nothing is what you think it is. Feel the essence. When you go through the path of suffering, you transcend your mind and return to your I AM. To the memory of who you really are as a
AND SO IT IS…
if you want enlightenment,
forget about enlightenment.
if you want love,
forget about love,
if you want money,
forget about money,
if you want health,
forget about health,
if you want anything,
forget about it.
Everything you want now will never be the way you think it is.
It’s just a limited version, an illusion, a phantom.
Your life was not what you remember, nor will your future be as you expect it to be.
Everything is much deeper and more meaningful.
The attempt to define the world by the mind is very simplified.
What many of us deep down want within is freedom from this to go beyond these narrow definitions of reality.
The way to immerse yourself in this infinite depth is to abandon all truths of the mind. Leaving everything behind.
Letting all go.
Everything you’ve read, everything you’ve learned, everything you’ve found to be true or a lie.
Allowing yourself to be who you are is opening up and constantly letting go of everything even things we like. With full trust in ourselves that nothing will happen to us, because it’s just mind constructions that crumble into dust.
In this great opening of acceptance, allowing trying to understand anything, to enclose it within the boundaries of the mind cuts it off. We become mental again. If you have any expectations, plans, or worries about all this work and mind creation.
Don’t try to understand anything.
Cut off everything the mind produces.
Nothing is what we think it is, and nothing will be what we want it to be.
And nothing was as we thought it was.
Allowing is powerless.
This does not mean weakness.
Allowing is not waiting.
It is to stay in the eternal now.
Allowing is not looking for an answer, or understanding something.It is continuous experiencing.
Being who you are is undefined.
If you read these words and start to judge and comment on them, let it go.
Take a good deep breath. Be undefined. Dive deep beyond.
You’ve always been yourself. It’s just your perception of yourself that’s changing. You have always been who you are.
You’re not separated from anything.
These words may be obvious to the mind and familiar to you, but can you let it all go?
Feel into that.
I AM that I AM
IT IS NOT WHAT YOU BELIVE IT IS WHAT PERCEIVE.
Do you realize that 99% of the thoughts you have do not belong to you? Your mind is perceiving them and recognizing them as yours, but they are not really yours, they come from others. From the environment, from other people from mass consciousness. The question is what we identify with.
With our body is similar, belongs to our ancestors. We have them, we use it, but it is not us. We experience everything as we perceive it. The mind, the body is the tool of reality perception. That’s it.
It all depends on what we choose. If we choose that someone rules our world, life, God directs our fate, the government in which we live and we burden everything else, not us, it is our way of perception and this is how it happens. And all our human experience will confirm that it is “truth” and there is no way out. But it depends on us what we choose. What are the limits we will set for ourselves?
Going further, it may seem to us that we are inventing something, some ideas, but all this is already finished and invented. What we create is our experience of how we perceive and interact with it. People suffer because they are trapped in one perspective and it seems to them that it can not be changed. They are stuck in thousands of illusions that block them and prevent them from moving.
They search for solutions, read books, try to improve their lives, but it is a continuous wandering into illusions and a tighter prison. Until they give up and say enough, I want change. What I have done so far in the long run does not change anything. Time for change. Then people wake up. Illusions fall with a bang and we see ourselves naked. There is a moment when we see ourselves as we are. And it’s a pure joy!
What does the Master do?
He is the master of perception, he juggles them and changes them like in a kaleidoscope. Reality changes immediately. He can enter any reality and leave it at any time. He can be anything and everything, but it knows that it’s just a change of illusion, a perception. Nothing is permanent, everything is changeable. Time is an illusion. Everything is going on now. Life is not linear is multidimensional.
What does a human do?
He is trapped in one point of perception. He believes in the mind, which is only a tool of perception, thinks with schemas, patterns and tries to repeat them. If he does not see the logical solution, he creates a problem on which he must work. And so man drowns in his mind, which is filled with thoughts of garbage.
Can you give up everything you believed in, everything that “yours”? Feel yourself and then play human life joyfully and without attachments? How much can you allow yourself? You set limits.
Can you imagine that every moment is new. Like a new life and does not have to be associated with any other moment? It seems to us that we must continue our stories, matters, but in fact we can jump out and go somewhere else at any moment. Without any circumscriptions and obligations. The question is, how much can you allow?
As much as you believe.
People tend to collect good things, positive opinions about themselves and they’re trying to hide things they don’t want to see. The image of oneself must be perfect and flawless. Then there appear desires that are supposed to fill all the gaps of the ego, with what we identify ourselves with. This is how the endless game of mind comes into being that wants to keep our identity alive. The mind searches for security, repetitive patterns and logic. It tries to control, manage, predict and protect what it has gained as an advantage over others who may threaten its existence. Any other views, changes, innovations, revolutions are a threat.If the threat is too great there is aggression and fight to destroy the view, the opponent who threatens the illusion of ego. It’s a power game. All the fear that we as humans experience is the loss of this illusion. This is not true. It is only in the mind. Nothing threatens us. People are not afraid of death, they are afraid of losing their identity, the image of themselves they have created in their heads, and they still believe that it is “they”.
Many people have heard of this concept, but I know few who have really experienced it and feel it, are living standards of it.There is a tendency to abandon one identification and assume another. Someone was a businessman, said one day he wanted change and became a “spiritual” person. It’s still the same game. Being truly free means letting go all our identities, those we like and those we don’t like. We do not need to destroy it, we do not need to fight it, fix it, we just need not take it seriously. And that’s it. It’s not about being a perfect human, it’s not about finding the one truth that’s right. It’s about changing self-perception. We don’t need anyone or anything from the outside. It’s just a change of perspective. You can say it now, yes, I know it, I’ve heard it before. But 99% of those who already know it have put the concept in a box and hide it deep in a drawer. They labeled it and signed it. But it’s not about knowing and understanding, it’s about feeling and experiencing. Can you imagine the feeling that you’re just fine? And you don’t have to correct anything anymore? What a release.
I had many identities. One of the funniest and most tricky was being a “spiritual person”. I had to eat healthily, I didn’t eat anything for some time, I had to meditate a lot, do yoga, read a lot of books, collect crystals and play on Tibetan bowls. I couldn’t have had bad thoughts and I was very serious about it. I was sending love to people, nature and the world. I just kept collecting things that have “spiritual people”. Because being a spiritual person is a serious matter, and above all a sacred one. These are not jokes, because you can have bad karma and subsequent incarnations and low vibrations. And then everything from scratch.
One beautiful sunny day, it all started fucking around. A few of my identities started to fall apart, but so completely. Nothing fit together. I just saw the big building fall apart and I can only watch the dust fall to the ground.That’s when my realization came in. It was all just a big fat story. A suffering that did not exist. And no one cares how it ends. Even God. There is no hell, there is no heaven, there is no god, no good no bad and no nothing I believed in turned out to be an illusion. Just an experience. I fucked up all the stones and crystals, incense and candles, rolled up the yoga mat and went to the shop to buy a bottle of whiskey, cigarettes and crisps. I never smoked, but since I can smoke and eat everything without consequences, I’ll smoke. Why not? I sat by the lake, smoked a pack of cigarettes and drank a bottle of whiskey listening to the devilish music from the phone. I’ve always had a tendency to listen to satanic bands, now I could do it without feeling guilty.
I’ve been trying to be “good” for so long, I’ve had to react somehow to be in a balance.I screamed and laughed at myself. My human self was so happy to dance in joy with soul.
And so it was!
People trust dead people, God, angels, politicians, doctors, authorities, other people but not themselves. True trust comes from within. No one can give you something you don’t give yourself. True mastery is about relying on yourself, not the others. When you really trust yourself, you don’t need outside confirmations.When you do not trust yourself, your trust comes from outside you have doubts, lack of self-confidence and you sabotage all your actions. Then you have no self-esteem, you feel bad, helpless and worthless. You become a victim of your own life. This is real human suffering. At the end you have only you. You are the only one person you have to trust. Everything else is a consequence of your relationship with you.
Many times in my life I was before the realization of my dreams, the things I wanted to realize I ran away at the last moment. I have not lacked anything, neither skills, nor creativity, resources, everything has always been there. At the end there was only a question, a doubt, which destroyed everything. In this way, for many years I sabotaged every action of mine. Then I tried even harder, suffered even more, and had doubts again. These doubts that I am not good enough, I should try to go on to become better and, in the end, fear that it will not work again.The things I wanted the most became my greatest pain. The things I wanted I started to avoid because I was afraid of suffering. It was self-sabotage pattern. Lack of self-trust and its consequences.It’s easy to say “believe in yourself”. But it’s just words. Realizing this, experience is something much deeper. It means letting go of everything, telling everyone that we don’t need anything, we are sovereign and the only creators of our lives. We can’t blame anyone for anything, because it’s all our creation and experience.You rely on You. You don’t trust God, you don’t trust angels, you don’t trust your partner, you trust ONLY yourself. You are sovereign.
It’s very funny to realize that you’re realized. You have always been.Suddenly, the veil disappears. And you realize that this is it. It’s always been here. You just haven’t seen it. You looked everywhere and it was always here. What a joke. The great joy of being yourself. You came back home. You know that you know. You always knew you knew. It is finished. The great joy of being yourself. “Do I want to end this life?”. It is a great addiction to live human life, drama, suffering, problems, eternal unfulfillment, and a never-ending search for yourself. It’s known, safe. And somehow we like it. We chose that. “Do I want to move on?” To a new, unknown, indefinite, difficult to understand by the mind or I’m going back?
The natural state of your being is the overwhelming joy of existence. No external conditions have to be fulfilled.Maybe some of you have long forgotten this feeling. But it is still in you. It exists and radiates all the time. It never ends. If you don’t feel this joy now, it means that it has been overshadowed by emotions, thoughts.These emotions thoughts may be yours or someone from your environment. It’s normal to feel this, the question of whether we want it to affect our sense of joy or not. Realizing this fact expand our consciousness and we cease to identify with what we feel.
It’s so simple, and it’s so easy to forget about it. May pure joy be with you. How you will find it within everything else does not really matter.It all starts with joy.
Time doesn’t really exist and it’s an illusionary construction of the mind. Procrastinating, waiting for a change is a great excuse not to do anything. No decision making, because we have to wait for something. It’s convinient.
Waiting until someone comes into our lives and gives us happiness, waiting until our lives become better. Waiting until something finally happens in our lives. These are great excuses not to make decisions and to sit in a comfortable prison of time and waiting.
Persistence in this is the fear of change. The human mind does not like change. It prefers to repeat suffering and known patterns rather than opening up to new and unknown.
Not to talk about realization, this enlightenment means the total death of the human self. It is terrifying for human and prefers not to do anything. The human prefers to learn forever, read books and go to new workshops and courses, but never finish it.
Being always a step away from realization, but not in realization. This is very annoying.