freedom – Saint Egoist

Human Parody

July 26, 2019July 26, 2019
by Saint Egoist

Sometimes I’m irritated by this human life. Dealing with bullshit, unnecessary things that don’t matter. People work all their lives, buy strange things, products, raise children, drive cars, are in traffic jams and waiting for a red light… pay taxes, clean up when they get dirty. They spend whole days at work to earn money, to be able to pay their bills. Strange duties, responsibilities, relationships. Sometimes they have a holiday and travel to exotic countries and think they’re great by posting colorful photos on Facebook. And the more ambitious ones try even harder to do these strange things better, more effective and are considered successful people. A lot of people think that if someone is spiritual, enlightened, realized… Fuck knows what, he can’t be in a bad mood, he smiles and sends love and breathes deeply when shit falls on him. Sometimes I get the impression that I am surrounded by an idiotic world and fucking people who chase strange things that don’t matter in the end. Let’s face the truth. This is not the life of a master in this world, this is a parody. Nothing but drink whiskey and smoke cigarettes and have fun with this comedy.

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TRANSCENDENCE OF SUFFERING

May 27, 2019May 27, 2019
by Saint Egoist

One day, I heard the voice of my soul in my head.

SOUL: What are you waiting for?

HUMAN: Yyyy? I do so many things, I have a great life.

SOUL: What are you waiting for? What are you waiting for? What are you waiting for?

HUMAN: What?

SOUL: Why do you stand still, years go by and you do everything around you, but not what you should do?
You go around and around and you don’t do what you’re supposed to do.

HUMAN: Then what the hell am I supposed to do?

SOUL: No more running around in circles. Look at yourself. What are you afraid of? Not what bothers you, what you want to fix. What are you most afraid of? You think you have to solve all your human problems in order to go further. Clean up. You say, OK, we move on, but first I have to do this and this…. and the years go by. And you are standing in the same place and waiting. You don’t know what you’re waiting for. You keep repeating the same thing. And you are just waiting.You were trained to perfection not to see what you were most afraid of. Not to see what is the essence of things. You have lied to yourself and you are lying to others. You do it perfectly, that you believe in it. You’re a perfect liar.

HUMAN: Thank you for your appreciation.

SOUL: Yeah, you’re great, everything you do is beautiful. The human experience is amazing and as a soul, I don’t want to punish you for anything. No one wants to punish you, you are perfect at what you do. But it’s time to move on. It’s time to move on, dear human.

HUMAN: Okay, I have some problems, things I’m afraid of and I didn’t want to look at them for a long time. I’m running out of money, there’s a fuck in my life and I don’t know what’s gonna happen tomorrow.

SOUL: But what’s behind these things? The details that manifest themselves physically do not matter. It is only a reflection of what is in the depths.What are you really afraid of? It’s not money, it’s not health, it’s not human problems.

HUMAN: I think I’m afraid of suffering.
SOUL: That’s the answer I wanted. It was easier for you to solve human problems, to walk from one problem to another and to create another so that you could solve it again. It was an escape from suffering. But if you look at the years of your life, you always had something to eat, a place to live and a good life, and yet you suffered. You suffered deeply. You could smile and look like a happy person, but you suffered deeply.

HUMAN: That’s how I feel about this suffering right now.

SOUL: 99% of people live and identify themselves with the mind, the ego. And the basis on which the mind is built is suffering. It’s so important to feel suffering. Don’t think about it, but feel it and don’t run away from it. Suffering is the creation of the mind. It may manifest itself physically, but it is an illusion, a creation of the mind.
When you know it’s an illusion, you’re not afraid to go through it anymore. It is painful to avoid fear, but not to recognize it and open yourself up to it. If you consciously open yourself to suffering, it disappears. There is no more power over you.

HUMAN: All right, but what about those physical problems that can really affect me and I can really physically suffer?

SOUL: This is what keeps you in the illusion of fear the most, physical suffering. But as I said, even physical suffering is mental. Through your mind, you create physical pain. Stop creating pain.When you accept it and stop creating physical pain, when you really understand it, nothing will hurt you. There can be no physical reality, any reality, unless you create it in non-physical dimensions.It’s time to let go of the illusion of fear. This is the only thing that keeps you in your mind. By understanding this, you can open yourself up to all illusions and sufferings. Everything you avoided. When they appear, be open, allow, breath deeply do not explain the decisions you have made in the past and what you will do in the future to avoid those problems. All human everyday problems are a manifestation of mental fear of suffering. People create problems because they think that if they solve them they will stop suffering, but then there will be others and others. You won’t get through suffering by solving your problems. No fighting, a total surrender. This is an internal transformation. So stay calm. Don’t try to focus on small problems, this is what distracts you from the essence of the existence of problems. Feel the essence of suffering, take it with all your heart. Remember, nothing can happen to you. Things may look dangerous around you, but it’s a mind game. Spread your wings and rise above all else. This is true alchemy. And you are a true Alchemist.
And remember, you’re great, no one judges you for your choices. Only you. You are not in danger. You are a great being who has for a moment forgotten who you are. You are the only creator of your reality, no one threatens you but you. All the problems you’ve created for yourself you can uncreate them. Remember, nothing is what you think it is. Feel the essence. When you go through the path of suffering, you transcend your mind and return to your I AM. To the memory of who you really are as a
whole.

AND SO IT IS…

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LOOSING MIND

May 25, 2019May 25, 2019
by Saint Egoist

if you want enlightenment,
forget about enlightenment.

if you want love,
forget about love,

if you want money,
forget about money,

if you want health,
forget about health,

if you want anything,
forget about it.

Everything you want now will never be the way you think it is.
It’s just a limited version, an illusion, a phantom.
Your life was not what you remember, nor will your future be as you expect it to be.

Everything is much deeper and more meaningful.
The attempt to define the world by the mind is very simplified.
What many of us deep down want within is freedom from this to go beyond these narrow definitions of reality.

The way to immerse yourself in this infinite depth is to abandon all truths of the mind. Leaving everything behind.
Letting all go.

Everything you’ve read, everything you’ve learned, everything you’ve found to be true or a lie.

Allowing yourself to be who you are is opening up and constantly letting go of everything even things we like. With full trust in ourselves that nothing will happen to us, because it’s just mind constructions that crumble into dust.

In this great opening of acceptance, allowing trying to understand anything, to enclose it within the boundaries of the mind cuts it off. We become mental again. If you have any expectations, plans, or worries about all this work and mind creation.

Don’t try to understand anything.
Cut off everything the mind produces.

Nothing is what we think it is, and nothing will be what we want it to be.

And nothing was as we thought it was.

Allowing is powerless.
This does not mean weakness.

Allowing is not waiting.
It is to stay in the eternal now.

Allowing is not looking for an answer, or understanding something.It is continuous experiencing.

Being who you are is undefined.

If you read these words and start to judge and comment on them, let it go.

Take a good deep breath. Be undefined. Dive deep beyond.

You’ve always been yourself. It’s just your perception of yourself that’s changing. You have always been who you are.
You’re not separated from anything.

These words may be obvious to the mind and familiar to you, but can you let it all go?

Feel into that.

I AM that I AM

Saint Egoist.

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IT IS NOT WHAT YOU BELIVE IT IS WHAT…

April 29, 2019April 29, 2019
by Saint Egoist

IT IS NOT WHAT YOU BELIVE IT IS WHAT PERCEIVE.

Do you realize that 99% of the thoughts you have do not belong to you? Your mind is perceiving them and recognizing them as yours, but they are not really yours, they come from others. From the environment, from other people from mass consciousness. The question is what we identify with.

With our body is similar, belongs to our ancestors. We have them, we use it, but it is not us. We experience everything as we perceive it. The mind, the body is the tool of reality perception. That’s it.

It all depends on what we choose. If we choose that someone rules our world, life, God directs our fate, the government in which we live and we burden everything else, not us, it is our way of perception and this is how it happens. And all our human experience will confirm that it is “truth” and there is no way out. But it depends on us what we choose. What are the limits we will set for ourselves?

Going further, it may seem to us that we are inventing something, some ideas, but all this is already finished and invented. What we create is our experience of how we perceive and interact with it. People suffer because they are trapped in one perspective and it seems to them that it can not be changed. They are stuck in thousands of illusions that block them and prevent them from moving.

They search for solutions, read books, try to improve their lives, but it is a continuous wandering into illusions and a tighter prison. Until they give up and say enough, I want change. What I have done so far in the long run does not change anything. Time for change. Then people wake up. Illusions fall with a bang and we see ourselves naked. There is a moment when we see ourselves as we are. And it’s a pure joy!

What does the Master do?

He is the master of perception, he juggles them and changes them like in a kaleidoscope. Reality changes immediately. He can enter any reality and leave it at any time. He can be anything and everything, but it knows that it’s just a change of illusion, a perception. Nothing is permanent, everything is changeable. Time is an illusion. Everything is going on now. Life is not linear is multidimensional.

What does a human do?

He is trapped in one point of perception. He believes in the mind, which is only a tool of perception, thinks with schemas, patterns and tries to repeat them. If he does not see the logical solution, he creates a problem on which he must work. And so man drowns in his mind, which is filled with thoughts of garbage.

Can you give up everything you believed in, everything that “yours”? Feel yourself and then play human life joyfully and without attachments? How much can you allow yourself? You set limits.

Can you imagine that every moment is new. Like a new life and does not have to be associated with any other moment? It seems to us that we must continue our stories, matters, but in fact we can jump out and go somewhere else at any moment. Without any circumscriptions and obligations. The question is, how much can you allow?
As much as you believe.

~Saint Egoist

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LOSS OF SELF ILLUSION

April 29, 2019April 29, 2019
by Saint Egoist

People tend to collect good things, positive opinions about themselves and they’re trying to hide things they don’t want to see. The image of oneself must be perfect and flawless. Then there appear desires that are supposed to fill all the gaps of the ego, with what we identify ourselves with. This is how the endless game of mind comes into being that wants to keep our identity alive. The mind searches for security, repetitive patterns and logic. It tries to control, manage, predict and protect what it has gained as an advantage over others who may threaten its existence. Any other views, changes, innovations, revolutions are a threat.If the threat is too great there is aggression and fight to destroy the view, the opponent who threatens the illusion of ego. It’s a power game. All the fear that we as humans experience is the loss of this illusion. This is not true. It is only in the mind. Nothing threatens us. People are not afraid of death, they are afraid of losing their identity, the image of themselves they have created in their heads, and they still believe that it is “they”.

Many people have heard of this concept, but I know few who have really experienced it and feel it, are living standards of it.There is a tendency to abandon one identification and assume another. Someone was a businessman, said one day he wanted change and became a “spiritual” person. It’s still the same game. Being truly free means letting go all our identities, those we like and those we don’t like. We do not need to destroy it, we do not need to fight it, fix it, we just need not take it seriously. And that’s it. It’s not about being a perfect human, it’s not about finding the one truth that’s right. It’s about changing self-perception. We don’t need anyone or anything from the outside. It’s just a change of perspective. You can say it now, yes, I know it, I’ve heard it before. But 99% of those who already know it have put the concept in a box and hide it deep in a drawer. They labeled it and signed it. But it’s not about knowing and understanding, it’s about feeling and experiencing. Can you imagine the feeling that you’re just fine? And you don’t have to correct anything anymore? What a release.

~Saint Egoist

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RELEASING SACREDNESS

April 25, 2019April 25, 2019
by Saint Egoist

I had many identities. One of the funniest and most tricky was being a “spiritual person”. I had to eat healthily, I didn’t eat anything for some time, I had to meditate a lot, do yoga, read a lot of books, collect crystals and play on Tibetan bowls. I couldn’t have had bad thoughts and I was very serious about it. I was sending love to people, nature and the world. I just kept collecting things that have “spiritual people”. Because being a spiritual person is a serious matter, and above all a sacred one. These are not jokes, because you can have bad karma and subsequent incarnations and low vibrations. And then everything from scratch.

One beautiful sunny day, it all started fucking around. A few of my identities started to fall apart, but so completely. Nothing fit together. I just saw the big building fall apart and I can only watch the dust fall to the ground.That’s when my realization came in. It was all just a big fat story. A suffering that did not exist. And no one cares how it ends. Even God. There is no hell, there is no heaven, there is no god, no good no bad and no nothing I believed in turned out to be an illusion. Just an experience. I fucked up all the stones and crystals, incense and candles, rolled up the yoga mat and went to the shop to buy a bottle of whiskey, cigarettes and crisps. I never smoked, but since I can smoke and eat everything without consequences, I’ll smoke. Why not? I sat by the lake, smoked a pack of cigarettes and drank a bottle of whiskey listening to the devilish music from the phone. I’ve always had a tendency to listen to satanic bands, now I could do it without feeling guilty.

I’ve been trying to be “good” for so long, I’ve had to react somehow to be in a balance.I screamed and laughed at myself. My human self was so happy to dance in joy with soul.

And so it was!

Saint Egoist

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Acceptance

March 21, 2019March 21, 2019
by Saint Egoist

True master doesn’t have to worry about anything.
The master have many perspectives and he can shift it instantly.
He is not locked in any perspective in any place.
Being free is being aware of shifting your perspectives as you want.
Human sometimes feels uncomfortable, but not a master.
The human doesn’t like changes. So it resists and suffer.
You can shift your perspectives instantly. You don’t have to wait or solve human issues. It’s just excuses.
Let go of all of the excuses to LIVE. To live openly, honestly in dignity and joy of your presence.
There is no time for hiding. You are perfect being.
Not a human to fix.
All you did was a necessity. All serves you.
You may think you are not perfect. You are not good enough. It’s not a time yet. But it is all excuses from being YOU.
Don’t afraid to be YOU.
There is nothing to fix there is only ACCEPTANCE.

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YOU CAN LEAVE THE SHOW

May 9, 2018February 1, 2019
by Saint Egoist

Life of the average human is based on searching for problems and then solving them through hardship.
As a human, we are used to it. Such action is firmly rooted in mass consciousness.
This is the main motivation of human life, have no problems, pains and be happy.
Many people may think that their lives are great because they have a lot of passions and interests.
But to be true… human problems come down to health, money, relationships, and self-esteem. That’s it. For many lifetimes. It could be a fun and nice experience to live in this limited reality, but it’s time to expand beyond this. Human will never solve his problems because if he solves them it will appear again in another form. This is the nature of the human mind and how it works. Solving problems, achieving goals and desires is a food for the mind.
But now we are freeing ourselves from our minds, and mass consciousness.

At the beginning, as it began in my life, I lost all my human passions and interests. For several years, I tried to go for something new that would bring me joy. But the old methods did not work. Simply, my passion for life has expired. For some time I was wondering if I want to live at all and it makes sense to stay here being surrounded by people who live matters that no longer concern me and which do NOT INTEREST ME AT ALL. I was ready to die.

Now I watch the news, listen to old friends and family… everything is fun for me, I watch it all like a cartoon, a comic show in which I no longer participate. I used to take everything seriously and let myself be drawn in and live with this performance. I used to take it all seriously and I was afraid that I could go wrong in this performance, and the worst thing is that something could happen to me for real.

I played a lot of the role of being a victim, abuser, living in lack, struggling with illnesses and many unsuccessful romances, and of course many more pleasant roles.
But now it’s over. How many times can we play the same? I’m bored with the show.

We can of course stay and play human games in infinity or just say no more and get out of the show!
Yes, we can leave the show! All of this was a human performance, just an experience. But that’s not all that we really are.
We do not have to finish our stories, nor wait for the moment when we solve all of our problems, it is impossible. The only thing we can do is to accept it. Everything that is not entirely our way and fulfills human desires.

As uncle Adamus said at this moment sadness and nostalgia may appear. Why do we just find out about it now and why did it last so long? Sadness that our old human life goes away, which we loved so much and we will not return to it. This is a sweet sadness. A memory of human experiences. A sense of loneliness that we do not belong to the world of mass consciousness that has been so close to us, and now we simply stand beside it all.

At this point, all of our human experiences distill into the sweet nectar of the soul, and we are ready to go for more of ourselves.

~Saint Egoist

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Finding Yourself

February 5, 2018
by Saint Egoist

I was searching and trying to find myself very hard. I felt very deep inside me that I am much more than what I see. I tried to find love outside me, and I tried to find abundance outside me. Everything that I wanted in my life was outside of me. I was trying to find the way out from limited human reality. I set goals, procedures, techniques, meditations, and I read all the possible books. I was great in theory, but it just kept me away from me even more. I was frustrated, after a while from the rest I tried to find myself again, and again.
I was frustrated and still searching for myself, for real fulfillment. I was continually looking for the missing puzzles that never fit together and were still missing something. When I was exhausted and gave up all attempts, I just had no more strength for it, and then everything suddenly started happening better than I expected. When I saw it, I tried to get involved again and improve the result by working on it. Then everything was fucked up again. I repeated this pattern thousands of times, for many years. I never had what I wanted, and I was always separated from what I wanted.

After many years, I realized that I was playing a mind game that is impossible to win, and it never ends. This game never gives a sense of fulfillment and real satisfaction.
I tried to get to know myself, my divinity through the prism of my mind. The mind has an insufficient spectrum of reality perception. Everything is simplified. The mind created goals, objects of desire placed far in the future that never happens.
All life always happens in the now moment only. There are no exceptions.
The question is, are we blind to the majesty of real life that is happening now or do we dream the illusions of a better life that will occur somewhere in the future?

We say YES, of course, we want to live now…

But at this moment we realize that there is nothing beautiful here at the moment, it is definitely not what we would like to experience. There is no money, no love, no enlightenment, no body what we would want. We see a simple gray everyday life that is merely boring, or full of problems and desires.
It is impossible that this boredom is unique and beautiful.
And then again, we start to repeat our search. We do not feel right where we are. Still, we expect something better. We begin to dream, hope and plan. We are drowning again in the illusion of a better future that never happens.
We are again in conflict with the life that is happening now and our expectations of what it should be.
The end of this painful mind game is to accept everything as it is, no matter how seeming it looks. Is it beautiful or ugly, pleasant or unpleasant… it is labels…. it is just as it is.

One of the most profound words: “All is well in all of creation.” express the end of searching, judging, struggling, and achieving illusionary objects from the mind.

And so it is!

Hubert

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ARE YOU READY TO CLAIM YOURSELF AS A GOD?

December 29, 2017
by Saint Egoist

There is nothing more than I Am. You are consciousness, and you are a god. It’s hard to consider yourself as a master then how do you say that You are a God? In mass consciousness, we are not worthy to compare ourselves to a god, or even look at him. We are not worthy to call ourselves as masters.
For many years I have considered this concept that I am a god, a god, similar to him. But to acknowledge oneself entirely as a god, not in mind, in theory, caused a great sense of guilt, scandal, fear, sinfulness, and unworthiness.
But the concept of god in mass consciousness is nothing more than giving responsibility for yourself to someone else. There is no greater authority of the being than you. You are the creator of everything that surrounds you. The god concept is just a power game. It is an illusion of power, which someone else is stronger than us, so we feel like little sinner sheep. The human god concept is a great illusion. Now, say it to the people on the street, in a country where 97% of people are Catholics! Hahahaha! “Shame! How can you say that? It is the worst blasphemy to call yourself the god. You will go to hell. To the worst.”
ARE YOU READY TO CLAIM YOURSELF TRULY AS A GOD? Let it go the illusion of human “power god” and take responsibility for yourself? There is nothing more than YOU. You are all.

And so it is…

Hubert