Hubert – Saint Egoist

Finding Yourself

February 5, 2018
by Saint Egoist

I was searching and trying to find myself very hard. I felt very deep inside me that I am much more than what I see. I tried to find love outside me, and I tried to find abundance outside me. Everything that I wanted in my life was outside of me. I was trying to find the way out from limited human reality. I set goals, procedures, techniques, meditations, and I read all the possible books. I was great in theory, but it just kept me away from me even more. I was frustrated, after a while from the rest I tried to find myself again, and again.
I was frustrated and still searching for myself, for real fulfillment. I was continually looking for the missing puzzles that never fit together and were still missing something. When I was exhausted and gave up all attempts, I just had no more strength for it, and then everything suddenly started happening better than I expected. When I saw it, I tried to get involved again and improve the result by working on it. Then everything was fucked up again. I repeated this pattern thousands of times, for many years. I never had what I wanted, and I was always separated from what I wanted.

After many years, I realized that I was playing a mind game that is impossible to win, and it never ends. This game never gives a sense of fulfillment and real satisfaction.
I tried to get to know myself, my divinity through the prism of my mind. The mind has an insufficient spectrum of reality perception. Everything is simplified. The mind created goals, objects of desire placed far in the future that never happens.
All life always happens in the now moment only. There are no exceptions.
The question is, are we blind to the majesty of real life that is happening now or do we dream the illusions of a better life that will occur somewhere in the future?

We say YES, of course, we want to live now…

But at this moment we realize that there is nothing beautiful here at the moment, it is definitely not what we would like to experience. There is no money, no love, no enlightenment, no body what we would want. We see a simple gray everyday life that is merely boring, or full of problems and desires.
It is impossible that this boredom is unique and beautiful.
And then again, we start to repeat our search. We do not feel right where we are. Still, we expect something better. We begin to dream, hope and plan. We are drowning again in the illusion of a better future that never happens.
We are again in conflict with the life that is happening now and our expectations of what it should be.
The end of this painful mind game is to accept everything as it is, no matter how seeming it looks. Is it beautiful or ugly, pleasant or unpleasant… it is labels…. it is just as it is.

One of the most profound words: “All is well in all of creation.” express the end of searching, judging, struggling, and achieving illusionary objects from the mind.

And so it is!

Hubert

enlightenment

ARE YOU READY TO CLAIM YOURSELF AS A GOD?

December 29, 2017
by Saint Egoist

There is nothing more than I Am. You are consciousness, and you are a god. It’s hard to consider yourself as a master then how do you say that You are a God? In mass consciousness, we are not worthy to compare ourselves to a god, or even look at him. We are not worthy to call ourselves as masters.
For many years I have considered this concept that I am a god, a god, similar to him. But to acknowledge oneself entirely as a god, not in mind, in theory, caused a great sense of guilt, scandal, fear, sinfulness, and unworthiness.
But the concept of god in mass consciousness is nothing more than giving responsibility for yourself to someone else. There is no greater authority of the being than you. You are the creator of everything that surrounds you. The god concept is just a power game. It is an illusion of power, which someone else is stronger than us, so we feel like little sinner sheep. The human god concept is a great illusion. Now, say it to the people on the street, in a country where 97% of people are Catholics! Hahahaha! “Shame! How can you say that? It is the worst blasphemy to call yourself the god. You will go to hell. To the worst.”
ARE YOU READY TO CLAIM YOURSELF TRULY AS A GOD? Let it go the illusion of human “power god” and take responsibility for yourself? There is nothing more than YOU. You are all.

And so it is…

Hubert

enlightenment

TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOURSELF

December 27, 2017
by Saint Egoist

The most significant value, throughout my life, was my freedom. I have been freeing my whole life from further restrictions and beliefs to become more free and independent. For most of my life, I followed my interests and preferences, without any compromises, no matter what people thought about it. I did most things against the expectations of my family, teachers at school, church teachings, and society. I gradually rejected everything. I did everything my way. As a real pirate.
One of the most challenging things that it was difficult to get out of, apart from school, religion, family, and divorce with my wife was the state, the law, the government control.
Paying taxes, going to the offices and getting police tickets for bad parking led me to a terrible feeling of being enslaved, doing something against me and punishing me for it, scaring me for going to prison, if I did not obey. A citizen of the country is treated as a slave who must be beaten, punished and controlled. And the state, officials and other services, want to control and money. They send official letters written with threats and precepts as to a small child who will be beaten soon.
For a long time, I was subconsciously afraid of this and avoided contact with offices and diligently fulfilled all my duties despite myself.
For years, unfortunately, I lived in a great conflict, and I felt enslaved. It seemed to me that I could have my views on life, I could eat whatever I want, work where I want, but from the law in the country I live there is no escape, and I am his slave. And I was.
At some point, I had enough of everything, all my duties, that when my company went bankrupt, I was happy that I did not have to deal with all this shit.
I stopped receiving mail and reading letters. I changed the phone number, and for over two years I have not looked at it yet, and I do not even remember what I was doing and what it was about.
I had an incredible disgust to do anything about it. I avoided dealing with these matters.
During this time, through numerous removals, I lost my company documents and stamps, I do not remember passwords to bank accounts, the domains, and servers on which I kept my company data expired. I do not have much, and I do not even remember.
For this reason, for a long time I felt like a victim, and I had a deep sense of guilt to do something about it, but on the other hand, I could not even lift my finger to take it, I had such a resistance.
I blamed the government, politicians, law, banks and myself for all this situation.
I asked myself “what’s going on?”. People work hard, pay taxes, to keep the government that punishes them, forces them and blackmail them. People maintain it, and people give it the energy to live. It’s nothing but pure masochism.
Then I realized that the country in which I live is nothing but a reflection of mass consciousness. Politicians who rule are a reflection of what people think.
There are no external forces, no conspiracy theories against me.
What I avoid is what I created. I am such a great creator that I created even a swamp from which I can not leave.
When I realized that I created it, and not that someone is doing something against me, I took full responsibility for myself, for my creations. I stopped being in resistance.
Taking full responsibility for all your creations is true freedom and sovereignty. The end of being a victim and blaming others for your bad destiny.
Being outside the game of being a victim, our environment changes, and we become invisible to those who continue to play it.
When we take total responsibility for ourselves, we disconnect from the system. We can no longer dump our responsibility on anyone. It’s easier for people to get caught up, but not take responsibility. Through this convenience, we have to pay taxes.

And so it is…

Hubert

enlightenment

From boredom to divine passion and inspiration

December 8, 2017
by Saint Egoist

My life has been cleansed of everything I’ve done before.

I do not have old friends, and I do not have old things to carry on. I do not need to fight for survival. I’m not a victim anymore. I’m not afraid of problems, and I’m not stressed. I do not have any daily duties, and I have plenty of free time. I have no motivation to get involved in any human affairs. I do not need to feel appreciation. I do not need to get the attention of other people. I do not have to like anyone, nor does anyone have to like me or love me. I do not have to save the world or help other people. There are no dramas of life. No power games. There is no motivation for life that other people have.

Many times I experienced this emptiness, boredom, and lack of motivation.

The boredom of everyday life and repetitive things. No interest in things that once enjoyed.

I always knew that there was something more. I was always sure about it.

“Okay, but what are you doing, man? You were on a walk, at the pool, on a massage, you slept many hours. What the hell do you do? What does your spirituality mean that you will grow old in the forest or die in a sauna?”

Yes. There was a long time of blaming myself for not doing anything significant to the world.

Spending many days alone with no duties and purpose leads the mind to madness.

For many days I also felt guilty, I had low self-esteem, I was incredibly bored. I avoided people because I did not have much to talk to them about. I was not particularly interested in everyday affairs and problems of average people. Life has become gray repetitive and boring.

So I asked myself: “I have no motivation to live, what is the purpose of my life. Why am I so bored”?

Then I realized that I was bored with human life in the physical and mental dimensions in mass-consciousness.

And my life in these dimensions has been meaningless, without achieving any goals, challenges, and demanding activities.

At that moment I felt my consciousness again. My mastery.

I began to feel the pleasant warmth of the surroundings, life again became friendly and took on colors.

Again I remembered what it meant to feel and be sensual really.

I realized how much my reality changed, the dimension, and the way I perceive this reality.

I realized how I change dimensions and realities.

PHYSICAL

In the lowest PHYSICAL dimension, we feel separation, duality, because we compare everything to our physical body. We see reality only as we can see it physically, touch it, take it in our hands, and see our eyes. Everything is solid and seems durable, has a lot of gravity. It is the most limited dimension. Everything is happening slowly.

MENTAL

In the next higher dimension, we can use THOUGHTS, imagine things that do not exist. We can create them with the help of thoughts and imagination. We are also influenced by the thoughts of others and the programming of mass consciousness. This is a great dimension until we are not its prisoners. In this dimension, we have goals, motivations, actions, logic, and problems to solve. Living in this dimension, our main motivation is survival, satisfying basic life needs (food, sex, sleep), competition, gaining an advantage over others… power games.

Because of the problems we have created, we suffer and try to fight them through addictions, diseases and blaming others. In this dimension, it seems to us that everything is against us or outside of us. We feel separated from everything we want. We are waiting for better times, luck, or someone will do something for us, or we pray for god. Your mind and emotions (physical reactions of your body to thoughts) can fake everything, your enlightenment, spirituality, god, love, and your „higher realms.”

In this reality, people talk about common things, problems, and logical solutions.

CONSCIOUSNESS

In the next dimension, we have FEELINGS. Using imagination, we start to FEEL. We don’t need to understand feelings. Feelings are just a feelings. How to describe love, a red color? We can feel everything. Being aware is feeling.

We can download everything that we can feel to physical reality very fast.

Since feelings are difficult to translate in mind, we do not have to use it to manifest something in physical reality. Feelings overwrite thoughts, emotions and logic mind. All we can do is ALLOWING.

ALLOWING without expectations, illusions and analyzing.

This is a significant simplification. There are further dimensions, but this is irrelevant. Because most people are trapped between 2 and 3.

Many times I was in consciousness and feeling a deep connection to everything, but an unexpected situation, past issue, trauma, and I was drawn back to jail in a mental dimension forgetting what consciousness is.

The mind knows what consciousness is, but what the mind calls consciousness is just an illusion of consciousness. The mind can deceive, imitate and pretend to be conscious! The mind can fake love and even happiness. And this is a prison.

Oh fuck, how many times have I been back there! I’m getting angry when I write about it. 😀

Feel your consciousness, breathe with your consciousness. Do not read about it. Feel your abundance, love. Do not read about it and try to change it or achieve it. Feel it. Breathe it. Allow it. And that’s all.

It’s so fucking easy that you do not want to believe. But the mastery is simple. Complexity is a distortion.

There is no human MOTIVATION for taking tasks, actions and achieving goals in consciousness.

You have INSPIRATION, passion. When you are inspired, your life begins to flow.

You are in a constant flow. There is no planning, worrying and wondering what to do next.

You shine with your light, awareness, and it attracts everything you need at a given moment, bypassing the mind.

In this state, your human problems, limited goals, low needs are replaced with your real life PURPOSE, your DIVINE WILL, SOUL PASSION.

If you feel boredom, it means you are shifting to higher realms.

And so it is…

HUBERT