Time doesn’t really exist and it’s an illusionary construction of the mind. Procrastinating, waiting for a change is a great excuse not to do anything. No decision making, because we have to wait for something. It’s convinient.
Waiting until someone comes into our lives and gives us happiness, waiting until our lives become better. Waiting until something finally happens in our lives. These are great excuses not to make decisions and to sit in a comfortable prison of time and waiting.
Persistence in this is the fear of change. The human mind does not like change. It prefers to repeat suffering and known patterns rather than opening up to new and unknown.
Not to talk about realization, this enlightenment means the total death of the human self. It is terrifying for human and prefers not to do anything. The human prefers to learn forever, read books and go to new workshops and courses, but never finish it.
Being always a step away from realization, but not in realization. This is very annoying.