People trust dead people, God, angels, politicians, doctors, authorities, other people but not themselves. True trust comes from within. No one can give you something you don’t give yourself. True mastery is about relying on yourself, not the others. When you really trust yourself, you don’t need outside confirmations.When you do not trust yourself, your trust comes from outside you have doubts, lack of self-confidence and you sabotage all your actions. Then you have no self-esteem, you feel bad, helpless and worthless. You become a victim of your own life. This is real human suffering. At the end you have only you. You are the only one person you have to trust. Everything else is a consequence of your relationship with you.
Many times in my life I was before the realization of my dreams, the things I wanted to realize I ran away at the last moment. I have not lacked anything, neither skills, nor creativity, resources, everything has always been there. At the end there was only a question, a doubt, which destroyed everything. In this way, for many years I sabotaged every action of mine. Then I tried even harder, suffered even more, and had doubts again. These doubts that I am not good enough, I should try to go on to become better and, in the end, fear that it will not work again.The things I wanted the most became my greatest pain. The things I wanted I started to avoid because I was afraid of suffering. It was self-sabotage pattern. Lack of self-trust and its consequences.It’s easy to say “believe in yourself”. But it’s just words. Realizing this, experience is something much deeper. It means letting go of everything, telling everyone that we don’t need anything, we are sovereign and the only creators of our lives. We can’t blame anyone for anything, because it’s all our creation and experience.You rely on You. You don’t trust God, you don’t trust angels, you don’t trust your partner, you trust ONLY yourself. You are sovereign. 

~Saint Egoist